A Quiet Morning

Without the Man and the children,
on a rainy morning,
after the housework.

Wanted to chill with a cup of coffee

But can't help but be slightly depressive,
with the uncertain future,
the stress of going back to work,
the return of husband (will we quarrel yet again),
the errands I must be in charge of.

If I were to do this all over again,
I am not sure if I will do the same.

Shopping

Rain rain go away
come again another day
Elaine wants to play.

I want to go NBC to buy some paper.

What's my Dream?

In a big house with a garden and a pool,
spending time the girls,
playing, swimming, baking, reading,
with the man and a dog.

For all to be together
happy and healthy.

Birthdays

It came and went, 

with wishes, presents, a meal and some drinks.

Yesterday, 

it had a late start, 

built up with high expectations, 

hit the climax when the dinner venue was revealed.

Today, 

remnants of yesterday remained.

All else remain the same.

Tomorrow, 

memories it will be.

Seeing David

Should I prepare what I want to tell him or should I just let the conversation flow?

If I just let the conversation flow...

it will not be efficient but I will be me.

If I prepare a speech...

it will be too contrived but more efficient, 

as long as I am being truthful (will I?).

What should I do?

Moments

Moments of quietness are unpredictable now, hence are very precious.
Like now...

With my laptop, Monsters on TV, one on my lap, another one in the rocker asleep.
Mum is cleaning.
Husband and MIL are out.

Peace.
Love.

忍

百忍成金 千忍变神精。

Rainbow after Rain

Looking out of the window with a crying baby in my arms tonight, I was overwhelmed by emotions. Partly because of lack of sleep. I felt strangely desolate despite the support from my family and friends. I blamed myself for the sadness I feel, for the situation we are in, for the challenges I foresee, for the crying baby, for everything I could think of.

For a moment, I think I can't go on. I cried and cried quietly to myself, scared to worry the baby, and everyone else.

Then, somehow somewhere I found a tiny ounce of courage.

Quick Recipe - Asian Pasta

Only to be used when alone with a sleeping baby, hit with a serious hunger pang and left with an almost empty fridge

1. Cook instant noodles in boiling water
2. When water level is very low, add baked beans and cook for another 30 seconds
3. Turn off fire.
4. Add abalone sauce, garlic chili sauce and tobasco

All in 4.2 minutes

The Great Reunion

You know it is a day worth skipping lessons for when u have an amazing day catching up with your friends, playing with the children, enjoying delicious food and picking your family up from the airport.

By the time I reached the airport, I was reeling from the over-excitement. So bad (and good) that I mistook the time "1627" as the flight number on the Arrival Information Board.

When that happens, you know you had a good day.

Hide-and-Seek

This morning, I played the game with Legria.

He was well-hidden for about a year, from Hong Kong to Singapore mainly because I feel he was overweight and too smart. Hence, I kept him away from sight.

Today is the day he sees light. I find the greatness in him and decide to embrace him with all my might.

The Beginning

It meant the whole world for me, for us to all return to where I begin. I must admit (finally) it meant more than anything. It was fraught with danger but we ignored the signs and nearly gave up.

Then, we remember Love.